I’ve seen a quote floating around for a while now & I just want to address it, very briefly:
Well (in my humble opinion) that is a pile of shit (I would say sorry not sorry but I’m not lol)…
My trauma contributed towards my:
- eating disorder
- clinical depression
- OCD tendencies
- inability to trust anyone
- night terrors
- broken relationships with my family
- body dysmorphia
- suicidal ideation
- suicidal intent
… (the list goes on). BUT, importantly, what my trauma DID not do was make me strong.
My trauma made me weak. It made me feel weak. It made me feel guilty. It made me feel shame. It made me feel hurt. It made me feel worthless. It made me feel disgusting. It made me feel miserable. It made me feel cowardly. It made me feel lost.
But it did not make me feel stronger. I am not stronger because of my trauma.
My trauma made me lose years of my childhood, teenage years and early adulthood but it did not make me stronger.
My trauma did not add to my character. It did not make me kind. It did not make me a ‘warrior’. Do not romanticise trauma, do not ‘make the most of it’ and do not make yourself feel better by telling me any of this just because of your failure to face up to the facts.
What happened was and is horrific.
I made me stronger. I pulled myself through.
Please don’t tell me that ‘at least it made you stronger’. That credit goes to me, and not the trauma or anyone responsible for it.
Anything I am is thanks to me, and me alone.
See… short but sweet.
Love E x